How this life and all its worth are unfair

I was so angry just now, but now that I have cooled down, all that I am is sad, disappointed, and embarassed. I couldn’t believe that for a subject that’s 70% coursework and 30% finals, I only got 41% for my coursework. I calculated that even if I got full marks for my finals which is impossible, I’d only get a B+ for this subject.

Chances of me getting a C for this subject is very high. I do not want to get a C, as it’ll pull down my cgpa. My current cgpa is 3.0, and I really want to increase it. I have never gotten so low for my cgpa before, and it’s still a really low blow to me.

The biggest blow is probably the one about my friend, who I must admit I do not think academically highly of, got higher than me for a series of Photoshop assignments. My skills in Ps are very much better than hers, yet she got higher than me. Perhaps my skills aren’t as good as I thought.

Next is about how her tutorial group managed to get the tutor to let them redo their individual assignments to increase their coursework marks. My group was not informed about this, so I thought that it was because we got higher than 50%. But we only got to know our coursework marks today, and none of us got above 50%.

That’s why I feel it’s really unfair to us. This way, none of us will be getting an A for this subject. I even emailed the tutor to demand an explanation, and I hope she allows us to do the same. If she doesn’t, I will report this to my lecturer.

I blogged about this in my other more public blog, but said friend told me that even though I was angry, I shouldn’t. Of course, that made me even more emotional about it, and I thought, what the heck, it is my blog, I can blog about whatever discrepancies that you and your classmates did! But I didn’t want to jeopardise our friendship, so I deleted it. The entry.

I still feel quite disappointed with my marks. You could say I was to be blamed for my courseworks, but I can tell you I put my every effort into doing those assignments. In fact, those Illustrator and Photoshop assignments were my most favourite. But in the end, they were the ones which I scored lowest for. This goes to show that you may never be good at what you enjoy doing.