Trials of Love

I’ve recently created a new blog, ’cause partly there are things which I don’t want to publish in my other blog, which is read by most of my friends. The reason why…the things I would like to talk about, probably they wouldn’t accept what I want to say. Even if they do accept, probably it’ll be an uncomfortable topic, and they will often tease me about it. Something I wouldn’t want to put myself into.

Anyway, I am happy today. Last night, I had sex with my boyfriend. It was a spontaneous thing. We just came back from a supposedly alcoholic party. My boyfriend wasn’t drunk, and neither was I. But it was something that we wanted to do.

My boyfriend is a very cautious person. During the few times that we have made out, he usually didn’t want to have sex. Instead, he would use his finger. As last night’s little session was spontaneous, we didn’t use any protection. Not that I would’ve worried, because I trust him enough to pull it out before he comes. And he did.

But us having sex isn’t the thing that made me happy today. I came back from a lecture to him telling me that he was so worried about what we did last night, that he actually went to a clinic to buy contraceptive pills. And all the while, I was so worried thinking what emergency it was that he texted me about!

It was really a great relief to find that the emergency was nothing big. But the fact that he actually cared to buy me contraceptive pills so that I wouldn’t get pregnant was what touched me and made me happy the most.

If I were very pessimistic, I would say that he just didn’t want to have the burden of raising the baby with me. But even though I am kind of pessimistic, I wouldn’t blame him for not wanting to raise a baby, not at this age when we’ve just started our university life.

Though I was kind of surprised he actually mustered the courage to go to a clinic to buy the pill, I am happy. I have such a responsible boyfriend. :)